SparrowHawk

Posted Tue, 01/10/2012 - 00:33 by SparrowHawk

My two best traits are clarity of perception and precision of expression. I love to communicate.
 
I'm a passionate person. The issue that gets me the most inspired is freedom. I spent most of my life feeling trapped or controlled, while seeking inner peace/freedom. Raised by my Catholic mother and stepfather, I always had plenty of guilt going on inside to keep my behavior "good". Inwardly, I was dying. After a long fight with religious dogma, I emerged victorious and free. I realized that all human beings are equal before the Infinite. I'll spare you the details for now, but I don't believe in the patriarchal deity implied by the Christian Churches. Moreover, the intelligence that formed this universe is so vast that slapping a label like "God" (or many of the substitute terms like "Brahma", "Christ Consciousness", or "Spirit", that we have come to use in Western culture) on it seems a bit presumptuous to me.
 
Since my "emancipation from mental slavery", I have discovered that I have the power to transmute negative energy (I prefer the terms "segregative" or "hostile" because they are not tainted with judgment) into a neutral energy and ground it. I've learned to accept myself, and I've learned that true love is unconditional acceptance. I've also learned that by taking full responsibility for my experience, I can move forward through each day knowing that the only suffering I might experience will be for my benefit. Looking back upon my life, from this vantage point of responsibility, I can see that this has always been the case. What has changed is that I am now aware of it. I also have an unusual take on the role of government and the culture of destruction that currently /appears/ to be running the show. You'll get more on that if you show an interest.

Location

Portland, OR
United States
45° 31' 24.4272" N, 122° 40' 34.3452" W
Where I live: 
Portland, OR
United States
45° 31' 24.4272" N, 122° 40' 34.3452" W
Profile Information
Age: 
41
Gender: 
Male
Seeking: 
Females
For a: 
Friendship
Flirting
Relationship
Date
I am: 
Single
My social life: 

My social life? It consists of chatting on chan4chan, helping my disabled landlady do her shopping, going to powwows, debating on the David Icke forum, and oh yeah, GEEK TRIVIA NIGHT at McMenamin's Kennedy School.

My insides: 

I've been friendzoned by many women who have called me "a sweet man", so I guess I'm sweet. I think they mean considerate? In any case, it's hard to imagine a world where the women don't want to date those sweet men, and instead go for the douche factor. Oddly, that's the world I live in. Meh. My sense of humor is mostly based on absurdity, understatement and hyperbole. For example, I like grindhouse films (like Machete or Death Proof), and I also enjoy Stephen Wright's standup and Monty Python. Pee Wee Herman is also the bomb (that somebody set us up) Oh yeah, did I mention I liek mudkipz? I'm very much about respect and communication. Also I give allowance for idiosyncracies. I have some, so I expect other people to have them, too. I don't expect people to conform to my desires, and I don't go out of my way to conform to theirs. I have a self-confidence that irks authority figures. I question them calmly, and many can't hack it.

My outsides: 

I'm a big teddy bear. 6'1" and muscular, with a poggy tummy. If you're petite and like to be swallowed up in a man's big, strong arms, you'll like me. Currently sporting a full beard, I will more than likely shed it when the weather gets warm again. Well, you can see my pictures. I am part Apache, part Cherokee, part Irish, and part French. I have no tattoos or piercings, mostly because I have always had something more interesting on which to spend 180 dollars. That's how much it will cost to have the tattoo put on that I designed for myself. Oh yeah, I've got hairy arms, legs, and chest. If you want a manscapee, that's not me. Oddly, my armpits aren't very hairy. Guess that's the Indian coming out. I wish it would have come out on my face.

Occupation: 

I am without a job right now, because I am moving to Tennessee to help my father with his farm toward the end of January. I was printing in an offset printshop. It's fairly enjoyable, though I want to do more Saturday Market type stuff. I do layout and design as well, and have been a professional mechanic. I am a bit of a car nut. Not fast cars, nice cars.

Other stuff about me: 

I'm very responsible, almost to a fault. Very honest, too, but I go out of my way to not hurt people's feelings.

Schools Attended: 

University of Montana, B.A. in French and Linguistics

Places you've worked: 

In no order, DocuMart, Morgan Printing, Parchment Press, TR Dreams (trinket company), FarMoCo (auto reseller)U.S. Army, etc., etc.

My interests, hobbies, obsessions: 

The origin of authority, spirituality, self-empowerment, Nikola Tesla, Rune and Tarot readings and other forms of divination.

Education Level: 
College Graduate
I would like to meet: 

A sweet woman who knows how to laugh at herself, at life, and at death (at the appropriate times). Someone who is genuine. Someone who chooses integration over indignation, who can recognize the lesson, or gift, in each circumstance in which she finds herself. The woman I seek is truly spiritual, not a fuzzybunny or one who hides her pain with a patina of positive thinking. She realizes that responsibility is the essence of spirituality (because recognizing that you are a perfect expression of the Infinite means taking responsibility for what you have created with your limitless power). I know this is a tall order. This is why I have had few dates. Most women don't pass muster. Most of the ones I have met who do are either too young or too old to the point where she felt uncomfortable with "the subject"... I am very flexible. Or they've been married (sigh). But I know there's at least a couple of good ones out there who are available. I'm patient. It's a good thing I enjoy my own company. Oh yes, this is about you. It's essential that you also enjoy your own company, because I'm not going to pet your feelings constantly. You must have at least a modicum of self-confidence. A large vocabulary is a turn-on.

My family: 

My family is fairly dysfunctional, with a passive-aggressive mother and an absent father. Since 1997, I have cultivated a wonderful relationship with my dad, and we're like best friends now. My brother won't speak to either me or my dad, because of something he refuses to give us opportunity to make right. His loss, IMO. My mom and I get along fairly well as long as I maintain my boundaries with her. Getting along with family has a lot to do with maintaining boundaries, I have discovered.

Your thoughts in a nutshell
My thoughts on Smoking: 

Tobacco: OK if it's the organic stuff. Other herb: I like it, but haven't had any in a long time. It's just not a priority.

My thoughts on Religion: 

Religion, far from being the opiate of the masses, is the scourge of humanity. By scourge, I mean whip. It is the whip used to obtain obedience from the un-conscious.

My thoughts on Politics: 

No man is qualified to represent my best interests.

My thoughts on Pets: 

I like pets. I just rehomed my cat due to my upcoming move, and I am seriously considering whether it is appropriate for humans to exert the kind of control on an animal that is necessary when you have one for a 'pet'. I believe animals, as well as people, should be free.

My thoughts on Kids: 

I like 'em. I would like one or two. But I'm not stuck on that idea.

My thoughts on Alcohol: 

I live in Portland, AKA Heaven for Beer Lovers. Hopefully, the time I need to spend in Tennessee will be short. I don't care much for wine or hard liquor, though I do enjoy a good White Russian. I am an ordained priest in the Church of the Latter-Day Dude (no joke!).

My thoughts on Diet: 

Mostly vege, some meat. I like organics but am not obsessive about it. Consciousness is first, form is second.

My thoughts on Drugs: 

White Powders are generally Evil.

My thoughts on Hygiene: 

Somewhere between French and American.

My thoughts on Fitness: 

I feel like I'm fit enough to enjoy my life. I think that's what counts.

My thoughts on Fashion: 

Spare me!